Everyday, everyday he fights his body for some shreds of dignity and- oh no. New horrible thought incoming! Maybe he’s actually successful? He could be crying even more, probably. He has it in him. Untapped reservoirs of tears, enough to soak his beard and drown in. Maybe this really is the best he can do.
[If this is me operating at peak capacity: crying into my toast in front of Kim. I think I’d rather just die.]
(VOLITION: No.)
(EMPATHY: Kim would be unhappy.)
(ENDURANCE: Stop being a pussy.)
[Ok.]
(ESPIRIT DE CORPS: Anyway, see? I told you. You don’t just stop being a cop.)
(INLAND EMPIRE: Especially not you.)
(EMPATHY: Kim probably doesn’t want you do to do anything stupid and make a scene…or get arrested. You can’t exactly write off your weird shit with ‘I’m the law' and a flash of your badge anymore.)
“Right…I’ll be on my best behavior. Nothing but good ol' RCM values. I remember what those are, by the way.”
(LOGIC: You’re in a brand new world. You don’t know what the laws here are like. Or the prisons. You could have already broken like twenty laws by now.)
(HALF LIGHT: Oh my fuck. I’m not going to jail! I will stab a hundred bitches before I let you go to jail.)
He smiles reassuringly at Kim, and adds the double finger guns for good measure because his thoughts are making him uncomfortable. Unfortunately the finger guns involuntarily activate The Expression out of sheer muscle memory. The direct primordial opposite of reassuring facial expressions.
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[If this is me operating at peak capacity: crying into my toast in front of Kim. I think I’d rather just die.]
(VOLITION: No.)
(EMPATHY: Kim would be unhappy.)
(ENDURANCE: Stop being a pussy.)
[Ok.]
(ESPIRIT DE CORPS: Anyway, see? I told you. You don’t just stop being a cop.)
(INLAND EMPIRE: Especially not you.)
(EMPATHY: Kim probably doesn’t want you do to do anything stupid and make a scene…or get arrested. You can’t exactly write off your weird shit with ‘I’m the law' and a flash of your badge anymore.)
“Right…I’ll be on my best behavior. Nothing but good ol' RCM values. I remember what those are, by the way.”
(LOGIC: You’re in a brand new world. You don’t know what the laws here are like. Or the prisons. You could have already broken like twenty laws by now.)
(HALF LIGHT: Oh my fuck. I’m not going to jail! I will stab a hundred bitches before I let you go to jail.)
He smiles reassuringly at Kim, and adds the double finger guns for good measure because his thoughts are making him uncomfortable. Unfortunately the finger guns involuntarily activate The Expression out of sheer muscle memory. The direct primordial opposite of reassuring facial expressions.